Superbowl Sunday & Squaa

Three peat incoming?

Big big big fucking weekend, superbowl weekend and the chiefs are looking to create history ooooo lawdy lord I cannot wait until sunday! Chiefs, Eagles REMATCH! I believe in the boys and am feeling pretty confident about the game! not looking forward to the tired monday but we will power through! Little nap at colney? definetly not as I will be the only one there and if its warm enough need to get onto that roof. Last game of the season aswell and I reckon we go 1 better than the divisional round and by 1 better I of course mean we will score one extra point so i'm predicting a 33-30 Chiefs dub baby! lets get it!

In other sports news I dont really care about west ham too much, I hope potter brings some better ball to the London stadium but thats about it and the Dallas mavericks, GOD DAMN I lost more interest in following them this week, fuck me how do you trade away one of the greatest players in the NBA for peanuts and a caterpillar brow lump? I don't even really care if it helps win a ring, I was a Luka main through and through, I wanted a Dirk style career for the boy but thats no happening and I'm undecided on what I will do with my basketball fandom from here. I dont wanna support the lakers thats for sure and I guess I'll just keep posted on the NBA when it comes to playoff time. Thats about it for my sports fandom round up real highs and lows in the space of a week which could end up in another low come sunday night but I'm quite content with what the Chiefs have achieved so far so wouldn't be absolutely crushed if they lose. I  would just love to witness history and fo sure don't wanna see the Eagles win, cause fuck them birds and Nick Sirianni.

Other things on my mind recently have been friendships, cutting some and forging new ones. GWoP has been on a decline for the last year, we speak in the groupchat less, only really conversate on PS or through memes. They're not an outgoing bunch and I need to recognise that and stop trying to force them out, just ask them once and thats it, Yes i get pissed when I dont even get a reply but thats who them is and I aint gonna change that. Egghead is far away now but we're closer than ever I feel, we chat a lot more, make effort to see each other when we can and keep each other posted on current events, which I love. He's got himself a possible gally, which I'm happy for him, he deserved a nice girl after his last one for sure but he is worried of falling to deep which I can understand but he seems to wear his heart on his sleeve when he finds the right connection and from what he tells me, its the right connection. So fingers crossed for the brother and heres hoping it don't end to soon, don't wanna dive into those dark depths of lonliness again, I think even i've been paddeling in those waters recently however this past weekend I was not, I got out and socialised with various rascals Numbnuts being one and we had a cute date bowling, warm up for some future dates possibly? Doubt. 

Onto another love live, the wanna be stone faced, cold hearted, emotionless playboy Loretta who even after trying to put up that facade will likely be hoisted by her own patared and sucumb to every emotion possible. Poor sod just had a fella end things with her and you'd have thought the cunt had died in her arms. Lord don't let me fall like that for a woman for it to all go too pot so soon, prayers up for ya hoe. Lesley come to me about her mans, wants to let him go because of his looks, rather superficial of her. Don't lead a man on then leave because of their looks, just don't date them in the first place, right? I mean obviously you need to find them attractive, I feel I loove looking at pretty girls, who don't? But thats never the be all and end all when I'm dating, I mean i'll only want to date someone who I, myself find attractive and then take it from there. I know what its like on the other end, god damn one time I was described as 'different' that what she thought I would look like, I knew what that meant and so did she, i was having a bad skin day to be fair to myself.

Linked up with the boys at chinese with Yam Bam Thank You Ma'am. £400 squalla for 6 of us paid between 5, It was Yamin's idea and I was happy to let him pay but nooope. I didn't have a problem with paying for him either, thats just a bit i'm doing. Corz was there, no discussions of recent times came up we was all just civil, bit tense at the start but we got past that. I felt no urge to want him in my close circle or anything like that, I'm happy with how things are now, keep him at a distance. If he changes good for him, I want it for him, its just wether or not he truly wants it for himself. Which is tough, I know, I want to change and do want it for myself, actions just haven't exactly followed. Nothing changes if nothing changes.

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